Wednesday, May 30, 2007

sighs.. i'm having a hard time forgetting you man..

yesturday i find some stupid excuses to visit you at work. i don't have much time to spend with you n to see you. and i know i'm going to miss you like hell..

sometimes i really don't like this feeling.. i don't have the attitude to tell you off right in front of you.. because i don't wish to spoil our relationship. i don't wish to lose you as my buddy as well. i hope you really understand how i am to feel right now. to tell you seriously i'm very very not happy about yesturday.. i know i shouldn't but that's how my heart and mind reacted. i can't help myself too.. at that point time even until now. i felt useless.. you told me that you would stop your actions. but i didn't see any progress.. i'm really pissed of right now.. couldn't find someone to talk to.. so i typed out.. i don't know how much i can actually trust you anymore.. i really felt being betrayed. I HATE THIS FEELING! I'm sorry but i still have to say YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE! A BLOODY DARN FARKER!

after i proposed to her i felt relieved. because i can finally tell myself to be strong with my feelings. i don't intend to have this harted in me.. but i just can't help myself. i don't know who to believe now.. i really wished you can return into my arms. i promise you my love, your happiness and anything you want.

m0m0 you are the only want i wish to have..





不要bu yao shuo hua - eason chen