Thursday, May 24, 2007

ho hoo.. dust collecting in my blog.. lol.

this week is e learning week for my school.. guess what? i work through out this week.. 12 to 11.. tired..

so many things.. so many feelings.. so many thoughts flying in me.. as messy as rojak.. i work until sick liao.. so tired plus not enough sleep.. i hope my pay will shock me next month.. shock me for the large amount but not the small amount.. haha..

the feelings n thoughts:
i wanted to stop. but my buddy challenged me.. =[ i'm so weak n messy.. n frustrated.. n blank.. i wished we could be like the past more then anyone.. but what passed is past. no one wish to fall into the same hole again. once bitten twice shy.. i'm what i am.. if you really can't accept then forget about what had past.
i don't deny that i still miss your messages. i can also see the huge different in the messages now and before..
i don't deny that i still think of you before i sleep. what i see now is a different you.. not the one i know when we first met.
i lied to myself that i don't like you anymore.. becoz i really wish to forget you.. but you kept appearing in my mind any time. at work or in school or at home or even now..
i also know that i can't have anymore hopes.. the more i wish the more i bled..
sometimes i really wish i don't see you again.. i can't ask you to disappear.. maybe one day i'll make my move..

i need a break.. a long one. stop flooding me with the why n how come questions will you? i can't breathe anymore..





不要bu yao shuo hua - eason chen